Almost summer

It doesn't seem possible that it's nearly summertime. 

What's that old saying about time marching on?

I don't know about marching, that seems too slow.  It's more like galloping, or careening, something much more hurried than marching.

Summer is a time of friends and family, of long nights at the beach, of bonfires and BBQ's, surf and swimming. And warm evenings, reveling in sunsets that last for hours. But mostly, what I look forward to, is making memories in the sunshine.

In a nutshell

I have a confession to make. Well, not really a confession, more like an admission. For the last 5 months or so, I've been eating pretty much plant based, or vegan (no meat, fish or dairy). Ok well, not entirely. Remember, I have those 8 hens that keep dropping eggs out faster than you can say "wait, I'm a vegan!"? So, I have been eating my girls' eggs, but in my defense, they are orangey yellow, fresh as you can get, and I know exactly what they're eating. So, who could blame me for fudging just a little? Right?

Anyways, it hasn't been a challenge to eat my veggies, at all! Matter of fact, it's been easy. And it's been fun to come up with new ways of thinking about food. And, no more stressing out about what to eat at restaurants. Usually, there're only a couple of options for me. Maybe a salad, a side of veggies, or even chips and guacamole. All good in my book.

When a friend suggested we meet at the Zinc Cafe and Market, to catch up and have a bite to eat, I was thrilled. They have an extensive vegetarian menu, and plenty to choose from for me, too.

Of course I ordered up my all time fave, roasted veggies. It's an amazing combination of beets, brussel sprouts and carrots. I have tried and tried to duplicate this at home, but it never comes out quite like theirs. Go figure!

My friend got the mushroom, nut loaf with marinara sauce. Mm-mm, I told you it was amazing, didn't I? A. maze. ing.

There you have it, in a nutshell. Ha, get it?! Ok, whatever.

Oh, check out my friends' boots. Aren't these the cutest things, ever?

Cute, cute! Here's the link.

Celebrating women

Today is International Womens' Day, and I didn't want to miss this opportunity to pay homage to just a few of us. We are the foundation of our families, we are the avid supporters of our friends, and we are the backbone of our jobs. A mothers knowing touch, a laugh with girlfriends, a meal prepared for a husband, are the subtle and sometimes unrecognized gifts that women give to those around them. There are many champions among us. Even the most average woman has dealt with her own humble heroics. But here are some women who, in my opinion, have overcome oppression and passionately and peacefully shown how to be true heroes.

Ellen Johnson Sirleaf, Leymah Gbowee, and Tawakkol Karman

2004 Nobel Peace Prize winner and founder of the Green Belt Movement

Gloria Steinem

Michelle Obama

Laura Pollan,  founder of Cuba's Ladies in White

Mother and child by: Franz Lanting

Celebrate the women in your life today. It doesn't have to be anything extraordinary, just a smile, a touch, a phone call, just some kind of recognition of her generous spirit.

A new normal

My world has gotten very simple. October 14th started like any other day, with my usual routine. Wake up, feed the chickens, feed the family... and then it happened. I suddenly had excruciating pain in my lower back. So much pain in fact, that I could barely breathe. I was pretty panicked, but still tried to take deep breaths.

I then had to get to the bathroom. I don't remember if I crawled, or hugged the wall to get myself there. I plunked down on the toilet, and just like the touch of a fairy godmothers wand, ping, the pain vanished. But, at the same instant I found my left leg, from the bottom of my butt, to the back of my knee, numb. I foolishly thought it was temporary, but it is still numb nearly 5 months later.

This event put me on a trajectory of doctor visits. Not only regarding my back, but because of insurance issues, I decided it was time to take care of other check-ups that had been long overdue. Last November and December were dedicated to catching up on dermatology visits, colonoscopy, gyn and mammograms.

I remember every nuance of the moment when I received my melanoma diagnosis. I was in the parking lot getting ready for my second mammogram, which, all they had told me is "that we found something concerning...". Already anxiety stricken, I actually laughed out loud at the diagnosis. I mean it was the classic Murphy's law scenario! Btw, after 3 plus hours getting my follow-up mammogram, all checked out ok, just very cystic.

Come to find out, it was very early stage 1, on my right nostil, with no roots, and hadn't gotten into my bloodstream. If you are going to be diagnosed with melanoma, this is definitely what you want to hear. I had my surgery in early January, and have been healing physically, emotionally and spiritually ever since. It's been a long journey, and one that shook me right to my core. They had to take a pretty good chunk out of my nose, and a skin graft from beside my ear. I probably had at least 30 stitches, most likely more. My nose is a little disfigured now, but I'm really trying to put things in perspective and think about how lucky I am. I am not going to die from melanoma. And that, my friends, is all that matters.

So, my life has gotten a lot more simple. I continue to heal, and I'm trying to find my way back to normal. But there is now some light where there hadn't been. And a new normal is slowly emerging.

Sweet surrender

Photo: Rex Strombotne

Soooo... it's been awhile. How the heck are you all? I've missed this... and you!

It's been hard to write lately. I'm in a bit of a rough patch right now. I really hate to drone on about health stuff, so please, be patient with me. I'm concentrating on healing, and things are moving slowly. I know I owe you an explanation, but I'm not quite ready yet.

The good news is that I'll be ok eventually. Nothing that is life threatening, and really, that's the important thing. Boy, it is amazing how dumb stuff peals away when more important things become the focus.

xo

Resolute

Happy New Year!

I keep humming the song, Talkin' bout a revolution, you know the one by Jefferson Starship? But instead of revolution, I'm thinking resolution!

I usually don't make resolutions on New Years Eve. If I ever did, they'd be broken by mid-morning the next day. I'm not the disciplined type. But this year feels different somehow. This year I'm going to make just a couple and try to keep them. Keep it simple.

Here's what I'm resolute about for next year: 

To be a kinder, gentler person. If we're divulging truth here, let's just say that I have become a little bit of a, hmmm, how do you say... bitch grump lately, so I thought this would be a good thing to work on for the next 50 years, or so.

And with that goes being more forgiving. Of myself, especially. Oh, maybe Mr R and the kids, too. Buddy, my dog? No way, he peed on my carpet a few days ago, and there's NO forgiveness for that!

I think that's enough to work on for now. What about you? Do you make resolutions? And if you do, have you ever kept them?

Wishing you a very Happy New Year! I sure hope this year we'll all follow our paths and make the world a little bit better. 

xo

Bloglessness is a word

 I am a very bad blogger. I am such a bad blogger, I shouldn't even call myself a blogger! I mean what other blogger doesn't even blog?

It all started with my damn back. It's still the same, bulging disc and no feeling in my leg, just in case you were wondering. It's been over two months, by the way. Then there were a couple more medical scares, and I swore that I wouldn't bore you with  boring details about bulging discs, lack of general good health and frailty. I mean really, I am completely bored by it myself! Why don't I just shut up already!

So, with all this fun and frivolity, I really don't have anything to say.

I can't even tell you how much I'm looking forward to 2012. A new year means a fresh start, right? RIGHT?

Anyways, there are plenty of things that I am grateful for out there in the world.

Here are a few of my favorite things... (you can start singing along at any time)

And of course, I can't leave out Mr. R and our two kids. 

If I don't talk to you before the holidays, here's wishing you a bundle of joy, world peace, perfect health and prosperity in the new year! Did I leave anything out? 

xo